like the moon who can't leave the sky

a jelousy in me
try to ripped off all the laughter

tears of enviness had poured
leaving me with a big hole right in the soul
creating a gloomy and blurry sight around my day
like flying without wings
like dreaming an endless sorrow story

why should be a feeling like this in me
why can i just ignore and leave

the answer would be
like the moon who can't leave the sky

note:
this is the jelous version of me

do u really meant what you've said or...

i'm torchering myself with the loneliness
with the feeling of missing u
longing to be look upon
to be searched
i'm torched
ripped up
broken appart
even the love song sang
can't mend the pain down
try to see beneath you
do you ever care
or...

let the silent air breeze through the tip of my head
do i really have a bit of you heart
or...

the screen up front flickering and flaring
showing some sites that i don't even browse
do u really try to find me when i'm not around
or...

do u really meant what you've said
or...

note:
a damn silly lousy day without u

thanks for healing me

all that i could say to you is thank you
thank you for healing me
for healing the ache of my heart
thank you for comforting me when i'm weak
thank you for assuring me that i'm not alone
thank you for being close to my heart
please stay a little while
don't just leave and put the sorrow back in my life

note:
how can i hate u

long & hard mornin

it's been a long and hard mornin all along
finding somethin or someone to share or blame
and found none
like a litghning strike
it makes me realize
that I have no one to share the burden with
i'm all alone...

Note:
with a big headache knocking on the head

layakkah untuk terus bertanya

mencari sosokmu
dan menyelami lubukmu
mencari jawab dari tanya
yang tak berani dilontarkan

setiap saat mencoba menilik
setiap kata yang terucap
dan bahasa tubuh yang tergerak
tapi tak menemukan satu petunjuk pun
kepada jawaban yang diinginkan
bahkan sebaliknya
mendapatkan jabaran kalimat pendek yang menampar wajah

layakkah untuk terus bertanya
atau sudah waktunya untuk menarik kesimpulan
untuk mengubur dalam semua angan
dan kembali ke titik nadir
dimana asa sudah diputuskan
dimana harap dibelengu erat

dimana gue terus berteman sendiri yang kerap melukai dalam...

bagai matahari di garis cakrawala

dia bagai matahari ...
yang sesaat lagi tenggelam di garis batas cakrawala
indah... hangat... berwarna jingga keemasan...
sebuah visualisasi fenomenal...
yang kerap diabadikan manusia di dalam ingatan mereka
dia selalu ada
tapi tak mungkin diraih
gue udah cukup beruntung
bisa merekamnya dalam benak
merekam setiap detik benamnya ke dalam gelap
untuk kemudian melihatnya lagi di keesokkan hari
dia selalu ada
menerangi kalbu
menghangatkan jiwa
tapi bukan untuk dimiliki
cukup untuk dikagumi

note:
terimakasih untuk ada